Another round of depression

Another week has passed, and I'm still feeling sad. I don't have a life to do anything, I don't want to put effort into doing anything, and I just feel so bad. I've been bingeing a lot, and I know I have to stop and get back to shape but I can't find reason to do so. This is supposed to be my year, but somehow it feels like it's slipping right before me and there's nothing I can do about it. Maybe I need to be with my friends, maybe I need to go to another beach get away, maybe I need to start over again. I don't know. All I know is that I want everything to go back to daffodils and pixie dusts and rainbows and pinks. I just don't know how I can make things go back to fairy tale.